pathetic

isn't it pathetic to feel ur presence undesired...
especially when ur suggestion got rejected..
just one word.. pathetic...
all time low..

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i know the updates abt u via others..
it's always new to me..
u said u told me but i never heard of it..
u said u told someone and I am not the one..
u can talk to others abt many stuff
but turn quiet in my presence or dun wan to tell me stuff..
I even sense ur resentment and impatient during our chat
eventually I shut my mouth..no mood to talk..

in the end I dun even know u r emo..and wat u emo abt..
I don deserve to know and a chance to console?

25092010-26092010

Modern family season 1 (24 episodes)
interesting mockumentary.. always laugh at all the things that could happen in family..

Pandorum 深空失忆
sci-fi movie tat make me keep thinking of dead space and mass effect.. slight similarities among these three.. the creatures look like that of in the movie descent..

Date night 约会之夜

romantic comedy that make me laugh a little.. great couple combi.. both are great comedians in series..


Peony Pavilion 游园惊梦
damn old movie produced by Yonfan (mean have a little theme of plu) that I had always wanted to watch when it was release.. I could rem that it was rated R21 in the cinema due to make out scene of Daniel Wu (great body) with Joey Wong (nothing shown) thus I cant watch it.. beautiful japanese actress Rie Miyazawa in the show tat memorized me whenever she appear..it like my soul is captured by her beauty, elegant in her act.. she really deserved the award..

Transylmania 吸血鬼复仇记

boring vampire-themed teen comedy that is not funny at all.. boring..

She's Out of My League 我配不上她

nice romantic comedy that make me laugh.. one of the rare romantic comedy that use a loser-look actor as the main male actor.. theme :a loser can get a beauty as his babe as long as he is confident..

in memory of weiwei

a minute of silence for wei wei.. rip @ 5pm..
u r the strongest.. survive the longest among all...
miss u....

wat kind of ship is thiis?

initially it is atill acceptable when they joked abt it.. later there were a high frequencies of the same thing.. eventually found out abt they actually jealous of it and one even feel very demoralised by it that he every time lament how lousy he is and now he had changed job with higher pay...
I am nt the one with highest no yet I am alway the target of the joke..
hai...

waiting like a idiot

waiting waiting waiting like a idiot
cancel movie trip @920 cos thought can chat with u
keep expecting and got disappointed every time...
so hurt in the heart tat it wet my eyes
so pain in the heart tat make my mind scream
want 2 share with some1 but never felt so lonely like a empty shell

I am losing....

other update to you
you update to others
do u know mine? do I know yours?

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wat is life... maybe to me life mean living is fucking experience..
to have a life as human being sux.. have to grow up and be responsible when you reach 18 or 21. It is because u can be prosecuted for your words and actions. Be human mean you have to experience all type of feelings tat you can think of.. anger, joy, bored, sadness.. n etcs..
be human can be so complicated and I have never felt so tired b4.. try to end it but obligation and selfless me cant do that..really hope for that day to come and let me taste the freedom and stress-free world..

have never felt so demoralize and low confidence
always felt that other is always better than me
they are always smarter than me
they are always more approachable
they are always more chatty than me
they can entertain other than me
they are always better than me in all ways

misunderstood again...
something is fucking wrong in my tone or voice..
colleagues and friends thought tat I am sarcastic when I am not..
I shld stop giving stupid comments, smoke more so that I will talk less.. dun feel like talking.. be a mute maybe is a better choice for me..

so tired yet I cant sleep again...
so hungry yet I dun know wat I want